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I wish for one fucking day I could have a normal life. With a family… - Samantha Jo
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I wish for one fucking day I could have a normal life.
With a family who loves me and wants me to succeed.

I wish I could have a family that didn't care more about freaking money and working 24/7 at their gay ass jobs than they did about their kids.

I don't understand how two people who, together, make almost $200,000 a year can't help me with my education!!!!!!!

FASFA says you can give me $60 grand a fucking year! WHY CAN'T YOU EVEN GIVE ME LIKE $20 WITHOUT ACTING LIKE YOU BROKE THE FUCKING BANK?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!

I have not had more than 3 consecutive days off from school or working for almost 2 years! I don't think it's such a bad thing to want a fucking summer vacation, or do something I fucking want to in the summer.

I don't want to work at Cerner!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Guess what?!?!??! I COULDN'T GIVE A RATS ASS ABOUT MEDICAL IT. I DON'T FUCKING GIVE A FUCKING SHIT ABOUT ANYTHING YOU FUCKING DO THERE.

But every summer, I waste away there. You wanna know why?
Because my parents who make almost twice as much as a normal income family are too fucking "broke" to help me with my education!!

I go to a shitty fucking school because, "it's cheaper."

I DON'T FUCKING CARE THAT'S NOT THE FUCKING POINT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THE FUCKING POINT IS THAT IM NOT HAPPY!!!!!!!!

WHY IS MONEY ALWAYS MORE IMPORTANT TO YOU THAN BEING HAPPY!!!

WHY DOES MONEY MATTER AT ALL?!?!?!?!?!?!

I FUCKING HATE IT! AND I HATE YOU!!!!

I could never be like you.

You waste all of your money on your new cars, and eating out every single day, and shit we don't need.
Jonathan has so many clothes and shoes.... he fucking LIVES in a lucky store.
But .......$150 a pop pair of jeans..... man we must be fucking poor!!!!

At that rate: I wonder where your money goes?????

Or maybe its the TENS OF THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS my father spends every fucking year on cigarettes, Mt. Dew, and lottery tickets alone.

IN ALL OF THE MONEY THAT YOU HAVE SPENT ON THOSE 3 THINGS ALONE YOU COULD HAVE WON YOUR OWN FUCKING LOTTERY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I FUCKING HATE MY FAMILY MORE THAN ANYTHING IN THE ENTIRE FUCKING WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I just wish it weren't my family.
It's not fair.

I'm sorry I have higher values than money.
I'm sorry I want good things for myself.
I'm sorry I would rather spend time with people I care about instead of in an office couped up doing shit I don't even fucking care about.

I DON'T WANT YOUR FUCKED UP GAY ASS JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IT DOESN'T HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I wish you would support me for once, and care about my success, instead of worrying how much it will fucking cost!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Current Mood: pissed off pissed off

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From: tyrel_roo Date: July 12th, 2006 11:26 pm (UTC) (Link)
My mom tells me that I need to lose weight, and then she goes out and buys junk food because it's cheaper. Ugh.

You can always drop me a line, if you need to talk.
candyhearts13 From: candyhearts13 Date: July 13th, 2006 12:26 am (UTC) (Link)
I love you. And I'm sorry you're having these issues.

My family has money issues, but it's not because we make too much and they don't give me any- it's because we don't make enough and they don't have any to give.

You'll be out soon, kiddo. You're growing up-- this is a hard time in your life. But soon, you'll have your own place to live and your own life to live without them. Sure, maybe you'll have hella loans, but so does everyone else. :]

Cheer up, emo kid- and come visit me in Springfield.
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